Rainy Days and TUESDAYS get me down.

I'm paranoid. I am really paranoid. I saw my boss, my bosses' counterpart and my HR manager in my bosses office today. My immediate thoughts were they are talking about how to fire me on Thursday. I have been paranoid ever since my HR manager asked me out to lunch on Thursday. I'm sure it harmless and to ask how I'm doing, but I think in the back of my mind it is about: A) it is about me going home every single day for lunch, and being anti social or B) wanting to fire me. I'm scared. I have money saved up but it would only last me a year if I only spent 2000 dollars a month. Scary.

Work is also throwing me in a loop. I have A. and G. and the O. lines, but O. pretty much takes care of itself. A. and G. are slowly moving in and I'm bored. They are providing me enough work. However I don't know everything about the systems and I still have to ask my counterparts how do some things. How do I go to my boss and ask for more work? Uh Steve, I don't everything about my job yet and still have to ask questions, but I would like more work? I need to ask Mom about this. She would give me good advice. I guess I will wait it out tomorrow. If I'm bored to tears like I was today for the last hour, I will call Mom immediately when I get home. She will know what I can do.

Financial Woes

I meet with Todd of Edward Jones investments. My gut said no. He is not my guy. He switched careers and has a daughter my age. He wants long term investors and yes I want to do long term investment but if this was his third career why should I trust him?

Quinn C. of Wells Fargo called but I'm more into sitting down and interviewing someone then calling online and trusting someone who I just meet over the Internet. Anyway he is calling back on Thursday, but I doubt I will go with them.

Food

I use food as a crutch, when I am depressed I tend to eat more and exercise less. Today I ate 2275 already. EEK! I really should go to the gym it will energize me but right now I just don't want to go.

I feel like I have hit a wall, I need to bust through it. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.