COUCH
First all and foremost I am sitting on my Ethan Allen oatmeal colored couch in my living room and it feels so good! After 13 to 14 weeks wait, I finally have it. It works really well and is really comfortable, so comfortable that I am yawning! Now all I have to worry about is spilling stuff on it and paying it off. There goes 1150+ dollars but it was well worth it and I still love the color.
WEIGHT
I weighted myself this morning. It wasn't pretty... in fact hold on. I'm going to go strip. I weight 181.2. I wanted to lose 30 pounds this year, now it is 31.2 pounds. My idea is to get to my goal weight of 150. I use to think that counting calories an exercising were going to be enough and now I don't know if that is going to do it. I know I am in the beginning of the year, and I haven't failed on my goal but I don't want to come around to the end of the year and have failed with little to nothing done. It is not that I don't know what to do to get there, it is I fall into traps. I count calories until dinner, and then don't count dinner calories. I get lazy and if I don't go one day or if I eat a lot of calories I get lazy and don't go to the gym. I buy chocolate eclairs when I shouldn't and gobble them all down instead eating them over periods of days. I also could stay longer at the gym. But the gym is also a different story, I don't always know what I am doing is helping me lose weight or is the fast way to do it. I would like to get a trainer, but I don't know how much it will cost and I want to get a nutritionist/trainer that will help be motivated and lose weight, not just someone who will suck my money. It is a lot to think about. But for now... here is how I am going to achieve my weight loss goal.
1. I will go to the gym 5 times a week.
2. I will count my calories. My limit a day is 2100 calories.
3. I will have weigh in Wednesdays, where I will take a picture and post it here. Maybe the humiliation of having my weight for the puplic to see will motivate me to get it lower.
4. On March 23 I will revisit my weight and how these steps are working for me.
Writing
I am actually not to far off on what I wanted to write each week, based off my goal. As of this post I will have had an average of 3 posts a week. I think this not to bad, I mean it could be better, but I am meeting my goal. However I keep thinking how nice it would be to have handwritten entries instead of this. But then I go back and forth on how easy this is to edit and type. It is a trade off and I need to figure out what I will enjoy more in the long run. Who knows this might just be a gear up for next year where I will hand write 3/4 entries a week! We will have to see.
Work
I took the afternoon off of work. I had a shit ton of stuff today and I will have a shit ton of stuff to do tomorrow. This is the section where I get to whimper and whine about how crappy tomorrow is going to be. whimper whimper. Deal with it! This is my blog!
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Goals for Last Week of Feburary
Goals for last week of February
1. Run six times.
2. Teeth regiment.
3. Write Sidsel
4. Write Matt
5. Finish 2 books.
6. Blog three this week.
This week I am going to focus on losing my weight. I am going to exercising and focus on counting calories. I need to keep my calories around 2100.
1. Run six times.
2. Teeth regiment.
3. Write Sidsel
4. Write Matt
5. Finish 2 books.
6. Blog three this week.
This week I am going to focus on losing my weight. I am going to exercising and focus on counting calories. I need to keep my calories around 2100.
Forever Young
Saturday (2/20/10)
Woke up and started cleaning since Mom and Dad were running late and were not going to get to my apartment until 10:30. From 11 to noon we did fix it projects, we figured out the room arrangement for my when my couch was getting here, hung my stain glass window, we worked on tightening my desk handles and my knobs in my kitchen. And finally we recovered my desk chair. We did this around the brewery tour we took up at Schells. It was really good, short but wonderful. You got to sample eight beers and drink your favorite. We also got to see the old buildings and have the history of place told. It was short and simple, I wish it could be a bit longer and that we could actually go in the brewery like you can do at Summit, but whatever. It was fun and I will take all my friends there when they come to visit.
After the brewery tour, we came back and finished the fix it projects. Then we went out to eat at the "Mexican" restaurant in town. It actually has a different name but everyone calls it the Mexican place. You know you live in a small town when. It was sketchy on the outside but when you see the parking lot, you knew it was a good sign. Packed full and the food was really good! It is fun to discover these things, It makes the town more bare able to live and more charming to me.
Sunday (2/21/10)
A happy but a sad day for me all wrapped up into one. Today I planed on going to Aunt Kathy's to wash my two/three weeks worth of laundry because my place does not come with a washer/dryer. Sigh. Love it/hate it relationship again, but I am not going to tangent off on my love hate relationships with MY TOWN or my apartment.
At Aunt Kathy's place was all my Aunts. She had planned a sisters day, and since I was coming it was at her place. My Mother and my Aunts get together every month for a sister's day out. I tagged along to this and loved it, I can't tell you how often I have longed for a sister of my own. I love living through my Mom and her Sisters, but sometimes I feel like I don't belong since I am a child, but at the same time not. Again today I had both emotions. For just once I would like to not have conflicting emotions about something. This is a thing that happens often to me.
My mom and her sister were planning on how best it is to break to their Mother, my 81 year old grandmother that is no longer acceptable for her to live on the family farm. This was really difficult for me, I know that my Grandmother is old, she fell this year while filling her bird feeders and couldn't get up for half an hour. Thank god she was able to otherwise we would have lost her. However I know she doesn't want to move, and I feel her pain. Plus I don't want things to change. Grams has always been in the farmhouse, and with her and my Uncle gone, no one will be living there. The Farmhouse/Farm land is a Century farm, my family has been there for over 100 years. The Farmhouse was the original post office for the town and now the house will have to be destroyed because Grandma/Nils wont be living there. I want to cry at the thought. It is for the best, but I don't have to like this change.
After my Aunts left Aunt Kathy and I made fudge, Mexican Fudge. It turned out well, I haven't cut into it, but the samples I tasted were pretty good. Aunt Kathy and I also planned on going up toe Grandma's place to learn how to make sun buckles on my favorite cookies. I am really excited about it! I mean again bitter sweet because it will be the last time I am with Grandma cooking in her kitchen but still I want to learn this and hope it will be a good memory for her too!
Mike's birthday was today. I can tell I am lonely because I keep thinking about him. I really miss him, check I miss being in a relationship. I figure if I keep thinking about him after I date another guy then I can call him. But I don't want to call him and get his hopes up. The main reason of concern here is Why do I keep thinking about him???!!! Loneliness? God I hope so!
In other news, it finally happened. I fell on my sidewalk. The crazy thing is I slipped there already once when I was heading out to get my laundry. You would think I would take note and make two trips with all the stuff I had to carry in, of course not! I piled it all up and of course fell. I whacked my knee pretty good. A light bruise but nothing too bad.
My song tonight is forever young. I want to be forever young and go back and time where it was still acceptable to call my Mom, Mommy and curl up in her lap while she tells me everything is going to be okay.
Woke up and started cleaning since Mom and Dad were running late and were not going to get to my apartment until 10:30. From 11 to noon we did fix it projects, we figured out the room arrangement for my when my couch was getting here, hung my stain glass window, we worked on tightening my desk handles and my knobs in my kitchen. And finally we recovered my desk chair. We did this around the brewery tour we took up at Schells. It was really good, short but wonderful. You got to sample eight beers and drink your favorite. We also got to see the old buildings and have the history of place told. It was short and simple, I wish it could be a bit longer and that we could actually go in the brewery like you can do at Summit, but whatever. It was fun and I will take all my friends there when they come to visit.
After the brewery tour, we came back and finished the fix it projects. Then we went out to eat at the "Mexican" restaurant in town. It actually has a different name but everyone calls it the Mexican place. You know you live in a small town when. It was sketchy on the outside but when you see the parking lot, you knew it was a good sign. Packed full and the food was really good! It is fun to discover these things, It makes the town more bare able to live and more charming to me.
Sunday (2/21/10)
A happy but a sad day for me all wrapped up into one. Today I planed on going to Aunt Kathy's to wash my two/three weeks worth of laundry because my place does not come with a washer/dryer. Sigh. Love it/hate it relationship again, but I am not going to tangent off on my love hate relationships with MY TOWN or my apartment.
At Aunt Kathy's place was all my Aunts. She had planned a sisters day, and since I was coming it was at her place. My Mother and my Aunts get together every month for a sister's day out. I tagged along to this and loved it, I can't tell you how often I have longed for a sister of my own. I love living through my Mom and her Sisters, but sometimes I feel like I don't belong since I am a child, but at the same time not. Again today I had both emotions. For just once I would like to not have conflicting emotions about something. This is a thing that happens often to me.
My mom and her sister were planning on how best it is to break to their Mother, my 81 year old grandmother that is no longer acceptable for her to live on the family farm. This was really difficult for me, I know that my Grandmother is old, she fell this year while filling her bird feeders and couldn't get up for half an hour. Thank god she was able to otherwise we would have lost her. However I know she doesn't want to move, and I feel her pain. Plus I don't want things to change. Grams has always been in the farmhouse, and with her and my Uncle gone, no one will be living there. The Farmhouse/Farm land is a Century farm, my family has been there for over 100 years. The Farmhouse was the original post office for the town and now the house will have to be destroyed because Grandma/Nils wont be living there. I want to cry at the thought. It is for the best, but I don't have to like this change.
After my Aunts left Aunt Kathy and I made fudge, Mexican Fudge. It turned out well, I haven't cut into it, but the samples I tasted were pretty good. Aunt Kathy and I also planned on going up toe Grandma's place to learn how to make sun buckles on my favorite cookies. I am really excited about it! I mean again bitter sweet because it will be the last time I am with Grandma cooking in her kitchen but still I want to learn this and hope it will be a good memory for her too!
Mike's birthday was today. I can tell I am lonely because I keep thinking about him. I really miss him, check I miss being in a relationship. I figure if I keep thinking about him after I date another guy then I can call him. But I don't want to call him and get his hopes up. The main reason of concern here is Why do I keep thinking about him???!!! Loneliness? God I hope so!
In other news, it finally happened. I fell on my sidewalk. The crazy thing is I slipped there already once when I was heading out to get my laundry. You would think I would take note and make two trips with all the stuff I had to carry in, of course not! I piled it all up and of course fell. I whacked my knee pretty good. A light bruise but nothing too bad.
My song tonight is forever young. I want to be forever young and go back and time where it was still acceptable to call my Mom, Mommy and curl up in her lap while she tells me everything is going to be okay.
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
The Valleys and Mountains of Life
Life is like a roller coaster, it has natural ups and downs of life. Today was the valleys and the planning out of natural life.
Work was ups and downs of stupid mistakes, minor victories and they day ended with me wondering where I stand in my job. My job butts up against so many others, engineers, shipping and production. It is hard to determine where my duties end and an other's begin. I wondered tonight whether I have gone to far encouraging on the production floor, I also wonder where the boundary is for me with between is between kindness and being helpful and snarky and sarcastic is. I am both and i need to find a good balance at work.
Life has it ups and downs outside of work too. My insurance went up because I lost my good student discount because of a speeding ticket. Insurance is going up 8 dollars a month. Sigh.
Good moment was talking with Julie. I felt I had a bad chat with her yesterday, but she called me today over the news and we caught up for about 20 minutes. It is nice to have companionship for even a few minutes.
I am on Olympic junkie. It is thrilling for me to see Americans or the underdog win it all. Even though it is disastrous on my sleep schedule--I am staying up really to catch it all, but I can't help it. I love it. I will sleep in the in between years.
Tonight food was a crutch and I didn't exercise. Sigh. Mega fall. How I went wrong below.
1. I didn't fall the menu.
2. I didn't run.
3. I overate at dinner.
4. Because I overate at dinner, I didn't go run.
5. I continued to over ate because at this point I didn't care.
This stops tomorrow. Lent began today and so as my goal for the two months... I will eat within 2500 calories each day.
I am going to redo this weeks goals for the rest of week (within reason.)See below.
1. Read VSP. I'm serious. It will get read this week.
2. Run 5 Times.
3. Teeth regiment.
4. Keep up contact with friends and family.
Email Matt (Done)
Email Ben (Done)
Call Christine
Call Julie (Done)
5. Cash checks from Birthday. (Done)
6. Clean the apartment. Full clean.
Full Clean of Apartment
Do Laundry
Prepare for Couch on Tuesday
Work was ups and downs of stupid mistakes, minor victories and they day ended with me wondering where I stand in my job. My job butts up against so many others, engineers, shipping and production. It is hard to determine where my duties end and an other's begin. I wondered tonight whether I have gone to far encouraging on the production floor, I also wonder where the boundary is for me with between is between kindness and being helpful and snarky and sarcastic is. I am both and i need to find a good balance at work.
Life has it ups and downs outside of work too. My insurance went up because I lost my good student discount because of a speeding ticket. Insurance is going up 8 dollars a month. Sigh.
Good moment was talking with Julie. I felt I had a bad chat with her yesterday, but she called me today over the news and we caught up for about 20 minutes. It is nice to have companionship for even a few minutes.
I am on Olympic junkie. It is thrilling for me to see Americans or the underdog win it all. Even though it is disastrous on my sleep schedule--I am staying up really to catch it all, but I can't help it. I love it. I will sleep in the in between years.
Tonight food was a crutch and I didn't exercise. Sigh. Mega fall. How I went wrong below.
1. I didn't fall the menu.
2. I didn't run.
3. I overate at dinner.
4. Because I overate at dinner, I didn't go run.
5. I continued to over ate because at this point I didn't care.
This stops tomorrow. Lent began today and so as my goal for the two months... I will eat within 2500 calories each day.
I am going to redo this weeks goals for the rest of week (within reason.)See below.
1. Read VSP. I'm serious. It will get read this week.
2. Run 5 Times.
3. Teeth regiment.
4. Keep up contact with friends and family.
Email Matt (Done)
Email Ben (Done)
Call Christine
Call Julie (Done)
5. Cash checks from Birthday. (Done)
6. Clean the apartment. Full clean.
Full Clean of Apartment
Do Laundry
Prepare for Couch on Tuesday
Sunday, February 14, 2010
Goals for this Week
1. Read VSP. I'm serious. It will get read this week.
2. Run 5 Times.
3. Teeth regiment. 5 times perfect with retainers and flossing.
4. Keep up contact with friends and family.
Email Matt
Email Ben
Call Christine
Call Julie
5. Cash checks from Birthday.
6. Clean the apartment. Full clean.
7. Watch Post Grad.
2. Run 5 Times.
3. Teeth regiment. 5 times perfect with retainers and flossing.
4. Keep up contact with friends and family.
Email Matt
Email Ben
Call Christine
Call Julie
5. Cash checks from Birthday.
6. Clean the apartment. Full clean.
7. Watch Post Grad.
Do you Bock?
This past Friday was my birthday. It was one for the ages. My friend Chris came down with her boyfriend Ryan. The entire weekend was dedicated to me and it was fantastic. I could not ask for a better people to spend my birthday with. Friday we went to Dinner at Turner Hall which is the restaurant behind my place. And then we watched Time Traveler's Wife. On Saturday we got up early ate breakfast at Perkins before going to stand in line at Bockfest. I have never in my life seen a deer beer bong, or some of the crazy costumes that were at Bockfest. Normally drinking for drinking purpose is not my thing, but I actually enjoyed the short amount of time I was there. We came home and I turned on the Olympics. I love the Olympics the history, the sportsmanship and the drama. I am so excited for the next two weeks! At four Chris and I went to go see Valentine's Day. It is a hard holiday for me, I don't like being single. But having Ryan and Chris down here I really didn't think about it. After watching Valentine's Day, I came back and cooked Chris and Ryan my favorite pasta dish. And much liquor was consumed. More then I ever had in my life before. Sunday we slept in, and then I got up and spent more time with Chris and Ryan. Enjoyed a nice breakfast of Cinnamon rolls before they took off. After that I slept. Was a wonderful weekend... couldn't ask for more.
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
I had a miserable day at work today. I should have known I would have been bored out of my mind coming in, knowing that I didn't have any major projects to do. It was also not a good idea when one of my coworkers tried to set me up today. Tomorrow she is planning on bring in a picture gulp.... I hope she forgets.
So yeah work was miserable, when I got home I made a salad for dinner, I actually think with the exercise I got in tonight (45 minutes on the elliptical) that I am within my calories (1897 minus 372 for exercising.)
I also cleaned my apartment within 2 hours! Who-hoo!
Not much to report. Going to go read... need to accomplish the goal of finishing the reliable wife in a week!
So yeah work was miserable, when I got home I made a salad for dinner, I actually think with the exercise I got in tonight (45 minutes on the elliptical) that I am within my calories (1897 minus 372 for exercising.)
I also cleaned my apartment within 2 hours! Who-hoo!
Not much to report. Going to go read... need to accomplish the goal of finishing the reliable wife in a week!
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Jazz
My place in MY TOWN comes with a cat. To be more specific a black male cat, and he looks to be in his prime cat years.
In my childhood I was highly allergic to cats. Their dander merely touched my face and poof I was swollen shut, literally. As an adult I am less reactive. Naturally most people, if allergic, would stay away from said cat. Not only for that reason but superstition too. I on the other hand as a non rational adult, went out and bough kitty treats to bribe the cat to make friends with me.
At first he didn't trust me and ran from me. After a week of giving him treats every time I saw him, he now does not run from me but insistently meows at me to either A) become his personal scratching post or B) give him the highly fattening not be used as real food cat treats. Which he gets as many as he wants. (He lives outdoors and fends for himself the extra calories are not going to hurt him, plus they help with tatar control!)
Today as I was shoveling the walk, I noticed that Jazz was in the garage, normally if I don't see him in his box I don't even venture in, but when I called he meowed to me. It is interesting Jazz showed me his personal own playground in the garage today (the old landlords haven't cleared out their junk so that cat uses it). It was interesting to be on eye level with Cat and for him to head bump me in order to get petted, which he did multiple times which of course caused me to break out sneezing, but you know what all the sneezing was worth it. Jazz and I are on a whole new level now.
In my childhood I was highly allergic to cats. Their dander merely touched my face and poof I was swollen shut, literally. As an adult I am less reactive. Naturally most people, if allergic, would stay away from said cat. Not only for that reason but superstition too. I on the other hand as a non rational adult, went out and bough kitty treats to bribe the cat to make friends with me.
At first he didn't trust me and ran from me. After a week of giving him treats every time I saw him, he now does not run from me but insistently meows at me to either A) become his personal scratching post or B) give him the highly fattening not be used as real food cat treats. Which he gets as many as he wants. (He lives outdoors and fends for himself the extra calories are not going to hurt him, plus they help with tatar control!)
Today as I was shoveling the walk, I noticed that Jazz was in the garage, normally if I don't see him in his box I don't even venture in, but when I called he meowed to me. It is interesting Jazz showed me his personal own playground in the garage today (the old landlords haven't cleared out their junk so that cat uses it). It was interesting to be on eye level with Cat and for him to head bump me in order to get petted, which he did multiple times which of course caused me to break out sneezing, but you know what all the sneezing was worth it. Jazz and I are on a whole new level now.
Monday, February 8, 2010
Monday Sucked.
Sometimes it is hard for me to be a good friend. For example "C" called me today. She wanted to rant about having to move in with her boyfriend early. She wanted to have a year in her Apartment to experience her 20s but now that her boyfriends roommates are moving out early, she gets to move in early. She called to complain about this to me while at her boyfriends house while on the sneak. And then hung up on me. Sheesh! Here I am extremely lonely down here in MY TOWN. I want nothing more then a boyfriend, I think about my ex all the time! Hell my theme song right now is Need You Now. And she calls me to complain, sometimes I feel more like her therapist then a friend. But I am ranting here. She truly is a good friend, and I don't think she purposely is trying to make it difficult for me.
In other news, today at work I was given the "D" products. So I am no longer just working with Brian, I am also working with "K" so that should be fun. I'm sure there will be days when I want to pull my hair out, but I guess they trust me enough to give me more work so yea! I'm doing my job right... I think. It is so hard to know!
As for goals this week, I ran today after work. I can tell I haven't exercised in days because my endurance was gone. Can't even run a mile without wanting to stop. Not good. Plus I counted my calories I ate nearly 3000 calories but exercised off 500. This not acceptable. I wondered why I can't lose weight, it is because of the crap I am putting into my system! So that means more veggies and fruits, they will be more filling. So veggies and fruits first before I am allowed pasta and carbs.
As for teeth, I brushed this morning so as long as I swing by the bathroom before bed I should be good.
Blogging... doing it now check.
And oh while I am complaining... I want to say screw you furniture shop that I ordered my couch from and you quoted me 12 weeks. Well it will be 12 weeks this weekend and my couch is NORTH CAROLINA! Get it on the truck and here! I will have to take vacation to have it delivered. And it will be a week late. GRR! Sometimes I wished I turned into the HULK and could show my rage. So now that I am pissed at two people and don't feel any better... I'm going to pick up a book.
In other news, today at work I was given the "D" products. So I am no longer just working with Brian, I am also working with "K" so that should be fun. I'm sure there will be days when I want to pull my hair out, but I guess they trust me enough to give me more work so yea! I'm doing my job right... I think. It is so hard to know!
As for goals this week, I ran today after work. I can tell I haven't exercised in days because my endurance was gone. Can't even run a mile without wanting to stop. Not good. Plus I counted my calories I ate nearly 3000 calories but exercised off 500. This not acceptable. I wondered why I can't lose weight, it is because of the crap I am putting into my system! So that means more veggies and fruits, they will be more filling. So veggies and fruits first before I am allowed pasta and carbs.
As for teeth, I brushed this morning so as long as I swing by the bathroom before bed I should be good.
Blogging... doing it now check.
And oh while I am complaining... I want to say screw you furniture shop that I ordered my couch from and you quoted me 12 weeks. Well it will be 12 weeks this weekend and my couch is NORTH CAROLINA! Get it on the truck and here! I will have to take vacation to have it delivered. And it will be a week late. GRR! Sometimes I wished I turned into the HULK and could show my rage. So now that I am pissed at two people and don't feel any better... I'm going to pick up a book.
Sunday, February 7, 2010
Falling off the Wagon...
It has been a month since I made my goals. And like everyone else who has every made New Year's Resolutions I have fallen off the bandwagon. Teeth, Blogging, Weight, finances everything has gone to shit. So tomorrow I start again anew, again teeth will have their regiment, I will be blogging every night and I will be running an counting calories again. Tonight I am going to enjoy watching the Superbowl with my family. Hate the late night drive back, but tomorrow it will start again. This weeks goals are:
1. Run four times.
2. Read the VSP package.
3. Brush,Rinse floss and wear my retainers all week.
4. Read A Respectable Wife in a week.
5. Blog four times in the week.
6. Go to the theater alone. (This one might be scrapped depending how the week is going)(2/8 Comment. So not possible this week. Will try again later.)
This week is considered from February 8th through February 14th.
1. Run four times.
2. Read the VSP package.
3. Brush,Rinse floss and wear my retainers all week.
4. Read A Respectable Wife in a week.
5. Blog four times in the week.
6. Go to the theater alone. (This one might be scrapped depending how the week is going)(2/8 Comment. So not possible this week. Will try again later.)
This week is considered from February 8th through February 14th.
Monday, February 1, 2010
Goals For First Week of Feburary
The weeks goals:
Finish the book "Maus I", if I finish "The Time Traveler's Wife" all the much better.
Run five times. Have a weight in Wednesday.
Take care of my teeth: brush, rinse, floss and retainers!
Finances: Read VSP, pay bills, and keep better track of receipts.
This week's goal is reading. Reading good books, intellectual books! I want to read read read!
Finish the book "Maus I", if I finish "The Time Traveler's Wife" all the much better.
Run five times. Have a weight in Wednesday.
Take care of my teeth: brush, rinse, floss and retainers!
Finances: Read VSP, pay bills, and keep better track of receipts.
This week's goal is reading. Reading good books, intellectual books! I want to read read read!
Goals for this Week
Read and Finish all of Maus I.
Run 5 times.
Teeth-brush, rinse, floss and wear retainers.
Finances-check wells fargo, read vsp,
Run 5 times.
Teeth-brush, rinse, floss and wear retainers.
Finances-check wells fargo, read vsp,
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