I WILL BE PRODUCTIVE TODAY!

I will get these things done:

1. Blog (hee hee already working on it)
2. Clean up/Pick Apartment
3. Dishes
4. Run
   

Weight/Running
I weight 184 pounds right now. I need to lose quite a bit of that. I would like to lose 34 of that. It would be great if I could get 14 of that in the next year or so. If not faster. I have not run since April 4th. I keep putting if off. Today I will not. I will run. I swear I will. Or else.

Waking Up/Showering/Make up
Today I did not leave my bed until well after 7. I did not put foundation for work. I was literally My hair is greasy. Again...this procrastination is not good. I would like to start getting into work at 7 so I could leave earlier like 4.

Work
M. is being a pain in the ass. He is asking me all these questions about can we delay this order? Are they going to go in back order, is it just a replenishment order? And I want to be like dude. You don't schedule this I do. I don't care if you have to work the weekend. If you can't keep up during the week then guess what you have to work the weekend. Get your training better or do a better job with quality but orders will go out in time. I understand you have a bottom line but take it up with quality/ken but not me. I am judged on on time delivery... you are judged on overtime/pay. We need to agree, but if M. will not work all over me.

Crap today Myron told me I explained something well... don't know if this a good sign. eek. help.

Dinner is done...after the news it will be time to go get crackin' at dishes and vacuuming.

Mountains out of Mole Hills

Issues I have at work. And I have a lot of them.

• Am I doing Enough Work?

I feel so bad. The other three analysts are so busy, I feel like I can take on more. But when I still need so much in training is it fair to ask for more? I feel so torn. AHKA!

• Corporate Credit Card

Do I need to get one for the trip we are taking? Or can I just rely on someone else to pay? And how to do this?

• Boxes Approved or Not? Help here!

Steve approved my purchase of boxes. I am confused... do I need someone else to approve my purchases? Does the division need a say? Help here Steve. Where did I go wrong?

• Canada quote?

I was copied on this email... and uh.. am I suppose to do something with this? Help here too!

I called Mom. She helped me realize that I am making mountains out of Molehill and that I need to talk to my boss. I have only been working for four months, Mom pointed out, I will make mistakes. This first thing I need to do is talk to Steve tomorrow.

Yeah... I feel exhausted now but I'm going to be productive doing something.

Also for Note.
1. Reservations for Saturday are at W.A. Frost.
2. Comcast is coming tomorrow at Noon.

I remembered my dream last night.

This morning I woke up remembering my dream, I hardly ever remember my dreams. Maybe six to twelve times a year do I actually remember it. And this wasn't a good dream this was a nightmare. It was really interesting like a crime solver where I figured out that the guy I was with was inventively going to kill me and I didn't do anything to get away from him, because I knew I would not succeed in escaping.

Oh. Ick. Watching the biggest loser and they are covering debt right now. I did not get my finances in control in March. So this how I will get my finances in control

1. I will finish Smart Women Finish Rich (April)
   
2. I will read Millionaire's Next Door (May)
   
3. I will read/invest in 3M stock program. (April)
   
4. I will email Mark Harrington about talking about this Friday.
5. Money will be invested by the End of April. (April)

Work today kind of sucked today. I need to meet with Steve and request more work. I'm getting bored. My business are doing okay but I need more.

Goals For The Week

1. Read and Finish two books.
2. Run four separate days this week.
3. Clean up the paperwork on the pile of the desk.
4. Laundry.
   
5. Brush teeth twice a day, rinse once and wear retainers for five days.
6. Make Reservations for Dinner this Saturday.
   
7. Call Cable company to make appointment.

Saturday Special

Ah. Got to love Saturdays. I am sitting on my couch watching Twins baseball, and eating frosted flakes. The only thing I could wish for is that my TV wasn't so shaky and that picture cam in clear. I think it it is my cabel or the network. If it continues to do this I will call comcast.

Yeah today is going to be an interesting day, I did something that I haven't done in awhile. I slept in. I was going to get moving around nine or ten but smacked my alarms off and didn't move until 11:25. I even slept through a phone call from the Edward Jones financial guy... yuck. At least he doesn't give up but still. No.

Mom and Dad went to the cabin this weekend with Aaron. I heard about this Thursday night. Next weekend they are going too. I would have gone but I am going to the theater with Chris Brorkman. i feel bad that I don't go up with them. Aaron does a lot of work up there with the folks. I haven't lately. I think they know it is a long way for me to come home, I have to drive an additional two hours to go with them and they would have to wait, but still I feel guilty for not helping as much as Aaron has. It would make sense if they gave him, the lake home, but i know they are leaving it to both of us. I shouldn't have to worry about this... I bought a lottery ticket last night (and my last two with Aaron have been winners!) so yeah we are going to win big.

Work this week has been uh either feeling like I know my shit or herding turtles. Really people need to take opportunities that are laid before them. Then people should not question me, (who that sounds really conceited) but seriously I know what I am doing...just trust me.

Oh and speaking of work, I asked two of the guys one in his late 20s early 30s and another one who is in his early 20s how old i am. The young one guessed 25-29 and then said it was better to go to young, then too old. I just smiled and didn't tell them my age.

I didn't wake up early enough today--I missed going to the Minnesota Music Hall of fame. The museum is only open from 10 to 2 Wednesday through Saturday. How stupid is that!? Instead I will go to the John Lind house or goose landing or maybe to the cemetery. But that will be tomorrow today is

1. Twins Game
2. Running
3. Waxing/cleaning the floor
4. Mailing letters to Amy/Allison
5. Reading
   

Okay... let see if I can get these things done...

My List of things to do.

1. Prescription
   
2. Monies
   
3. Pick Up
4. Reading
5. Blogging (other then this)

Prescription is sitting in the mailbox to go tomorrow--hopefully there will be no issue. And I have 14 to 21 days to get it back.

My Monies are done. Check book is updated. And my budget is updated. If I am able to spend 49 dollars a day. If I cut down to 34 dollars. I will be able to save 390 dollars this month.

I was able to pick up, all I have to do is dishes left. And I'm watching the Twins September to Remember so I am a really happy. I also should be happy because I got a 1.35% increase this year. That is an extra 700 dollars a year! Uh YEA! I'll take it. Hee hee.

Also my idea for a Kanban board for A. line was thought as a great idea by M. he is going to ask Ken tomorrow plus Tom told me I should pawn off my work for that on Jessica because my time is too valuable. YEA! It makes me feel good and all the pressure I felt this week about making this Kanban board is taken off my shoulders because the board isn't order yet.

Going to go wash dishes...actually nope going to watch Joe Mauer's spotlight. Oh I love baseball and I LOVE the twins!

We will see about reading and dishes later.

Exhausted.

I am exhausted. I have no idea why I am so sluggish but I am. Doing chores, dishes, ironing, running, even reading does not sound appealing right now.

Well I got up and made myself go and do this dishes and read for a little bit. Maybe the baseball opening day will shake me out of this funk and I get some other stuff done. I'm going to grab the ironing board and iron to see if that will motivate me or least force me to get something done.

Yea! I'm back and have ironed 3 shirts. So that one task is done for the week. I can cross at least one thing off. I also have the twins on... we will see how they do against the L.A. Angels.

Happy Easter!

I'm pathetic. I wearing my new ring on my left hand because I would love it to be an engagement ring. I am love with love. It doesn't help that I am watching Sex and the City too. Which is all about love. I am going to be Miranda this year at new years "alone with Chinese food".

Speaking of the ring, I bought it with promise to my self that when i look at it i would get my butt to the gym. I should go... and finish this journal entry up later.

Ah Shit. What did I do?

Ugh. I woke up this morning with the sun shinning brightly in my eyes. I should have loved it, but my teeth acked a sign that I need to wear my night gaurd a little more since I was grinding last night. The reason why I was grinding oh... I don't know it could be a) I'm lonely b) my work week was hellish or c) I talked to my ex Mike tonight.

Last night I spend the night cleaning. Not exactly the hottest plans for a Friday night. Don't get me wrong my apartment really need a good cleaning but it wasn't exactly fun. At ten I was sitting down when I got a call from Julie-she spent the night out with grad students and then had her crush walk her home. Jealous you bet I am. I need a manual on how to create friends in a small town.

After work (5 pm last night) I realized how much my week sucked. For the V. line I ran out of boxes, nearly ran out of colorant and then the truck to deliver my base material did not show up on Friday as they should have. I don't get it. I was calling around desperately and I was able to get a truck coming first thing Monday morning. thank god. The material should hold over the weekend but I am really nervous that we will run out. That will be my prayer all weekend that I wont run.

Mike. Mike called me last night asking me if I wanted to go for a walk. Thank god I'm in MY TOWN. However we talked for a while. It was great it bit the edge of my loneliness, but I made a horrible mistake. I was looking a David and Meg's second year anniversary pictures on facebook and was longing for company. I told him I wanted to go to Chicago. He took the bait and was like I'll go with you. Then he brought up Maraschino cherries. We use to use in our foreplay. He said he would bring them to Chicago with him. EEk. What did I do? I wanted friends and he is immediately going to lover. Oh shit.

I think I pissed off the guy I want to look at my finances . Matt Harrington hasn't replied to my email... shit. I didn't want to piss the one guy who I trusted. yeah shit.

Well it is 9:30 and I have so much that could get done today. Best get started on all of that action instead of staying in bed and wasting away the day. How much has changed since I got this job. Sometimes I want to go back, back to school back to college so I could change things. But even making more friends in college would not solve my loneliness here... my friends are moving away. The best I can do is do the best I can.