Random Rants

COUCH
First all and foremost I am sitting on my Ethan Allen oatmeal colored couch in my living room and it feels so good! After 13 to 14 weeks wait, I finally have it. It works really well and is really comfortable, so comfortable that I am yawning! Now all I have to worry about is spilling stuff on it and paying it off. There goes 1150+ dollars but it was well worth it and I still love the color.

WEIGHT
I weighted myself this morning. It wasn't pretty... in fact hold on. I'm going to go strip. I weight 181.2. I wanted to lose 30 pounds this year, now it is 31.2 pounds. My idea is to get to my goal weight of 150. I use to think that counting calories an exercising were going to be enough and now I don't know if that is going to do it. I know I am in the beginning of the year, and I haven't failed on my goal but I don't want to come around to the end of the year and have failed with little to nothing done. It is not that I don't know what to do to get there, it is I fall into traps. I count calories until dinner, and then don't count dinner calories. I get lazy and if I don't go one day or if I eat a lot of calories I get lazy and don't go to the gym. I buy chocolate eclairs when I shouldn't and gobble them all down instead eating them over periods of days. I also could stay longer at the gym. But the gym is also a different story, I don't always know what I am doing is helping me lose weight or is the fast way to do it. I would like to get a trainer, but I don't know how much it will cost and I want to get a nutritionist/trainer that will help be motivated and lose weight, not just someone who will suck my money. It is a lot to think about. But for now... here is how I am going to achieve my weight loss goal.

1. I will go to the gym 5 times a week.
2. I will count my calories. My limit a day is 2100 calories.
3. I will have weigh in Wednesdays, where I will take a picture and post it here. Maybe the humiliation of having my weight for the puplic to see will motivate me to get it lower.
4. On March 23 I will revisit my weight and how these steps are working for me.


Writing
I am actually not to far off on what I wanted to write each week, based off my goal. As of this post I will have had an average of 3 posts a week. I think this not to bad, I mean it could be better, but I am meeting my goal. However I keep thinking how nice it would be to have handwritten entries instead of this. But then I go back and forth on how easy this is to edit and type. It is a trade off and I need to figure out what I will enjoy more in the long run. Who knows this might just be a gear up for next year where I will hand write 3/4 entries a week! We will have to see.

Work
I took the afternoon off of work. I had a shit ton of stuff today and I will have a shit ton of stuff to do tomorrow. This is the section where I get to whimper and whine about how crappy tomorrow is going to be. whimper whimper. Deal with it! This is my blog!