Forever Young

Saturday (2/20/10)

Woke up and started cleaning since Mom and Dad were running late and were not going to get to my apartment until 10:30. From 11 to noon we did fix it projects, we figured out the room arrangement for my when my couch was getting here, hung my stain glass window, we worked on tightening my desk handles and my knobs in my kitchen. And finally we recovered my desk chair. We did this around the brewery tour we took up at Schells. It was really good, short but wonderful. You got to sample eight beers and drink your favorite. We also got to see the old buildings and have the history of place told. It was short and simple, I wish it could be a bit longer and that we could actually go in the brewery like you can do at Summit, but whatever. It was fun and I will take all my friends there when they come to visit.
After the brewery tour, we came back and finished the fix it projects. Then we went out to eat at the "Mexican" restaurant in town. It actually has a different name but everyone calls it the Mexican place. You know you live in a small town when. It was sketchy on the outside but when you see the parking lot, you knew it was a good sign. Packed full and the food was really good! It is fun to discover these things, It makes the town more bare able to live and more charming to me.

Sunday (2/21/10)

A happy but a sad day for me all wrapped up into one. Today I planed on going to Aunt Kathy's to wash my two/three weeks worth of laundry because my place does not come with a washer/dryer. Sigh. Love it/hate it relationship again, but I am not going to tangent off on my love hate relationships with MY TOWN or my apartment.

At Aunt Kathy's place was all my Aunts. She had planned a sisters day, and since I was coming it was at her place. My Mother and my Aunts get together every month for a sister's day out. I tagged along to this and loved it, I can't tell you how often I have longed for a sister of my own. I love living through my Mom and her Sisters, but sometimes I feel like I don't belong since I am a child, but at the same time not. Again today I had both emotions. For just once I would like to not have conflicting emotions about something. This is a thing that happens often to me.

My mom and her sister were planning on how best it is to break to their Mother, my 81 year old grandmother that is no longer acceptable for her to live on the family farm. This was really difficult for me, I know that my Grandmother is old, she fell this year while filling her bird feeders and couldn't get up for half an hour. Thank god she was able to otherwise we would have lost her. However I know she doesn't want to move, and I feel her pain. Plus I don't want things to change. Grams has always been in the farmhouse, and with her and my Uncle gone, no one will be living there. The Farmhouse/Farm land is a Century farm, my family has been there for over 100 years. The Farmhouse was the original post office for the town and now the house will have to be destroyed because Grandma/Nils wont be living there. I want to cry at the thought. It is for the best, but I don't have to like this change.


After my Aunts left Aunt Kathy and I made fudge, Mexican Fudge. It turned out well, I haven't cut into it, but the samples I tasted were pretty good. Aunt Kathy and I also planned on going up toe Grandma's place to learn how to make sun buckles on my favorite cookies. I am really excited about it! I mean again bitter sweet because it will be the last time I am with Grandma cooking in her kitchen but still I want to learn this and hope it will be a good memory for her too!

Mike's birthday was today. I can tell I am lonely because I keep thinking about him. I really miss him, check I miss being in a relationship. I figure if I keep thinking about him after I date another guy then I can call him. But I don't want to call him and get his hopes up. The main reason of concern here is Why do I keep thinking about him???!!! Loneliness? God I hope so!

In other news, it finally happened. I fell on my sidewalk. The crazy thing is I slipped there already once when I was heading out to get my laundry. You would think I would take note and make two trips with all the stuff I had to carry in, of course not! I piled it all up and of course fell. I whacked my knee pretty good. A light bruise but nothing too bad.


My song tonight is forever young. I want to be forever young and go back and time where it was still acceptable to call my Mom, Mommy and curl up in her lap while she tells me everything is going to be okay.