Ah Shit. What did I do?

Ugh. I woke up this morning with the sun shinning brightly in my eyes. I should have loved it, but my teeth acked a sign that I need to wear my night gaurd a little more since I was grinding last night. The reason why I was grinding oh... I don't know it could be a) I'm lonely b) my work week was hellish or c) I talked to my ex Mike tonight.

Last night I spend the night cleaning. Not exactly the hottest plans for a Friday night. Don't get me wrong my apartment really need a good cleaning but it wasn't exactly fun. At ten I was sitting down when I got a call from Julie-she spent the night out with grad students and then had her crush walk her home. Jealous you bet I am. I need a manual on how to create friends in a small town.

After work (5 pm last night) I realized how much my week sucked. For the V. line I ran out of boxes, nearly ran out of colorant and then the truck to deliver my base material did not show up on Friday as they should have. I don't get it. I was calling around desperately and I was able to get a truck coming first thing Monday morning. thank god. The material should hold over the weekend but I am really nervous that we will run out. That will be my prayer all weekend that I wont run.

Mike. Mike called me last night asking me if I wanted to go for a walk. Thank god I'm in MY TOWN. However we talked for a while. It was great it bit the edge of my loneliness, but I made a horrible mistake. I was looking a David and Meg's second year anniversary pictures on facebook and was longing for company. I told him I wanted to go to Chicago. He took the bait and was like I'll go with you. Then he brought up Maraschino cherries. We use to use in our foreplay. He said he would bring them to Chicago with him. EEk. What did I do? I wanted friends and he is immediately going to lover. Oh shit.

I think I pissed off the guy I want to look at my finances . Matt Harrington hasn't replied to my email... shit. I didn't want to piss the one guy who I trusted. yeah shit.

Well it is 9:30 and I have so much that could get done today. Best get started on all of that action instead of staying in bed and wasting away the day. How much has changed since I got this job. Sometimes I want to go back, back to school back to college so I could change things. But even making more friends in college would not solve my loneliness here... my friends are moving away. The best I can do is do the best I can.